In The Midst of Darkness

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I’ve been in a kind of funk the last few weeks or so.  You know the kind where you feel like you have a cloud over your head and as you look into the future, it just seems very dark.  Hope was lacking in me.  

This carried over through Easter Sunday and later in the afternoon, as I was sitting on the couch, waisting time on my phone.  I realized that I needed to get up, and it seemed like going outside would be a good idea.  The kids were excited as we headed out to the state park. When we got there, it was very quite with only a handful of people around.  As I sat on the beach, I had a quiet moment with myself, as I looked at the beautiful surroundings.  Photo Apr 16, 5 29 44 PM.jpg

I wished that I could have the same kind of peace that nature was exuding, with the stillness and quietness of the water.  Then in that very moment, God brought this verse to my mind:

“Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith!”
Luke 12:25-27

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I love how God brings His Word to my mind, as I need it. You see, I hadn’t really been wanting to talk to God or spend time with Him lately.  I was mad at Him for not answering my prayers as I would like.  But as that verse came to my mind, I was able to pin down exactly what was going on in my heart.  The heart can be so confusing at times.  But it became clear with these two words: FEAR and WORRY.  Those emotions can be so thick, so dark, and encompassing all around us at times.  But it does not have to be the only answer for a discouraging situation.  

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In that little moment on the beach with my kids, God reminded me that I was carrying a burden I didn’t need to carry.  There wasn’t any good I could do by worrying, and that I needed to trust God to care for me, just as the flowers and all of nature so innocently depend on Him for it’s needs.  

Now do I totally feel at peace? Is there no fear in my heart anymore? Honestly, my answer is no.  I’m still struggling through the burdens I carry.  But I can tell you, that God reminded me of his truth and gave me a glimpse of hope.  Part of the reason I am sharing this on my blog is to help remind myself (things sink in more when I write something down).  The other reason I’m sharing it is because I know there are others out there that feel burdened and hopeless just like I have been feeling.  

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Maybe these words are for you, just as much as they are for me.  Maybe you need to hear that there is a light at the end of the tunnel you are walking through, and even where you are at, you can have hope.  Hope is such a powerful word because it means to me that there is something better than the sin, the weight, and the burdens that are all around me.  There is light, there is goodness, and there is faithfulness, and it’s all found perfectly and completely in the person of Jesus Christ, and no one else. 

“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.” Acts 4:12




4 thoughts on “In The Midst of Darkness

  1. Thank you for sharing this!
    I’m very familiar with the “funk”! The most difficult part for me is accepting that I’m struggling with something. I have the tendency to think I can figure things out on my own… very low success rate. 🙂


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